i might have to;

change the name of this blog.

things rarely bother me anymore. i have a new outlook on life. i can't say i'm completely a changed person, but i'm definitely trying to better myself. i can't let people control my emotions. i can't keep bottling up my emotions like i've been doing all my life, because sooner or later shxts gonna boil over. i've finally realized that i can't save the world. i can't help everyone, because everyone doesn't want to be helped. some people just have to help themselves. also, sad to say i've learned that i can't depend on everyone i call my friends. but that's just a part of life. it's a part of growing up.

also;
i've decided to go natural =) i wanna 2001-era kelis afro! there's absolutely no point in me spending 4-5 hours every other saturday just to leave & go home & fix my hair the way that i want it to be. & i miss how my hair was when i was young. i know its never gonna be the same, but i think ts better that wasting $90 a month....

& finally;
i've come to the conclusion that people in long-term relationships spend so much time trying to prepare & safeguard their future with that person that they ruin today. its amazing to want to spend the rest of your life with that person. but don't throw the future in their face so much that they wouldn't want to be with you.